The Forest Is Always There

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 03:56:51 GMT

updateyness! i am sorry i have been so absent lately. im not sure if it has been terriby noticable, but i feel like i should fill livejournal in on what has been happening in my life of late!
in no particular order of corse

- we had to put my dog down a lil while ago. she had some sort of braintumor and was having the most horrible fits about twice a day. was awfully heartbreaking, but better then letting the poor lil thing suffer you know? i am in full puppy love mode, fawning over any dog i happen to encounter in my day to day life
- working at balmoral and hawthorne cinemas. ironicly (and in direct opposition to what i found working at a video store) working in a movie based environment makes me really unenthused about going to the actual cinemas to see films. as such still havent seen where the wild things are and countless other brilliant films. i did of corse make it to zombieland, since i am so enthusiastic in general about such things.
- have been staying in alot more, finding less and less things worth watching on television.
-went through this intense gossip girl faze. had to cut myself off because not only was it incredibly difficult to not be all "chuck you is a babe" 24/7, i found it made me quite sad that i am not ritch and obscenly pretty. screw you gg.
- have watched star trek movie about 50 times
- drawing less and more. i made a new zine, which noone seemed to care much for, so i shoved it in a box and people can get stuffed.
- playing alot of nintendo ds. cooking mamma is amazing.
- have been spendng more tim ewith friends who are less inclined to be drunk and addicted to substnces. tis quite refreshing!
- watched season one of big bang theory in a day with my friend sammy who is studying physics. was pretty much amazing.
- also went to the planatarium with a group of space enthusiastic friends. it is very hard to not feel extremly inconciquential when faced with the vastness of the universe.
- finished my cert 3 for tafe, going to start cert 4 next yer. i have absolutly no idea what i want to do with my life and how these silly bits or paper are going to contribute to this unknown goal.
- have a blogspot, if anyone wants to follow such a thing. i post there quite a bit

htt://puddleflowers.blogspot.com

so yeah. thats about it for now. i hope everyone is well

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 03:41:11 GMT

+ at straddie! This is the last time me and my friends will be able to come over in september as my friends fam are selling their house there. I feel like surely we should burn the place down! Sos none may tread upon these lands as we have.
Listening to agreeable tunes and the weather is so beautiful! Can't wait to go down to the beach when night falls.

Bought a straddie souvanere shirt with a picture of a shark on it. Pretty pleased with my effort.

And im also getting paid for some art I did for the first time ever this weekend! Its so exciting.

More to come!

My holidays atire consist of black and grey but are admitedly pretty summery otherwise.
Goth summer

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 14:49:33 GMT

can i just say LOL to nathan fillion making a tweet about the number 420 and not being able to put his finger on its significance (for those of your not part of the knowhow, 4:20 is the world wide recognised perct time for smooking pot. i have friends with it tattooed on them - yeah no joke)

but still that man is the cutets/best

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 11:49:24 GMT

updateness. not a whole lot has been happening in my life apart from the same old cycilic monotony. getting drunk, making out, regretting it, getting over it, repeat. i feel like i am becoming a whole different person some days, always debating internally not only my feelings, but why it is that i dont feel differently. i swear this brain will drive me crazy.

i feel like i am slowly breaking down the stigma i have attatched to being physical with people, something that is hard to do when things have happened in the past. i know my problems arent unique and beautiful however, so i am finding comfort in being comfortable in anothers grasp, in feeling unselfconcious and being able to see sex as just sex. its so wierd, after all the drama with boys in the past, to realise that they are just stupid people like everyone else. kisses dont have to be promises! and broken hearts dont break when not awake at all.

in other less inapropriate news, i found out that i got the job at balmoral cinemas! im starting training onthursday,and i cant wait to fall into the warm folds of that workplace family!

in the meantime i am watching alot of pushing daisies and pining after ned and chuck. they are clearly the perfect boy and the perfect girl, no?

What is your current obsession?
pushing daisies, sylar elle fic and writing letters.

What is your horoscope and do you relate?
i dont know, but i dont think sheldon from big bang theory would approve

What are you wearing today?
my anti_hangover special. black and white thin striped singlet and white shorts with blue flower pattern

What’s for dinner?
pizza!

What’s your favorite decade, fashion wise?
i find the aesthtetics of the 20's - 50's totally charming and beautiful. especially the high waisted flared skirts, and the beauty of a gentleman in a nice cut suit

What are your must haves for summer?
lots of stockings under shorts, over sized singlets, beautiful floral dresses! would also like to buy some disney couture if my funds allow for it

What would you love to be able to afford?
to be able to move out comfortably

What is your favorite piece of clothing from your own wardrobe?
my bluebird printed underwear and oversized wolf shirt (so so comfortable and safe)

What is your dream job?
freestyle artist maybe? photography of any description would be amazing

What’s your favorite magazine?
monster children (not so much recently), VICE, frankie, GQ

What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
the mixing of textiles (spots with stripes ect), wearing clothes that are ill fitting

Describe your personal style?
i kinda have this jeans and t-shirt side that is all i can be bothered to do most days, but when going out black high waisted skirts, lots of homemade jewlery and layers

Which Beatle is your favorite?
i do not care.

What are you proud of?
learning how to adjust my perspective in terms of my own actions, being able to take a step back and feel better about things

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 10:01:50 GMT

success! i finally have a job interview! after motnths and months of the most frustrating job searching.
i owe it all to my deer friend evie however, she works at the balmoral cinemas (pretty much the cheapest nicest cinemas in brisbane for those of you not familiar with bris) and scored me an interview. which is great, because after working in a video store im really keen to stay within the movie retail buisness. call me pretentious if you will, but i could easily whittle away a 7 hour shift waxing lyrical about the latest films.

speaking of latest films, Inglorious Basterds FINALLY comes out this thursday. i cant even express how excited i am. i went on this huge world war II trip a couple of weeks ago, i find the whole thing so gosh darn interesting (in a horrible sort of way). still, i have a feeling IB would be a lot more enjoyable if simon pegg was in it like originally planned (i bought GQ this month because it had simon pegg on the cover. is it just me or are mens magazines a trillion time more interesting then the average womens magazine?)

i have so much art to scan, its totally depressing me. i know if i just get it over and done with i will feel better but i am still feeling so lazy.

to do this week:
- scan everything for gig posters/ ep art
- at least START writting next part in heroes fic
- send off arts to alessandro
- be awesome at job interview

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 05:06:28 GMT

hello dear livejournal. i have not posted for a while, i hope all has been wel in my absence!

woke up feeling very horrible and sick this morning, justafied considering i drank a whole bottle of cheap vino ("cullen" wine, and although im not a twilight fangirl, i still giggled) and a whole bottle of gin.
ugh. can someone please remind me again why anyone ever drinks.
apart from the atermath this morning it was quite a nice night though.
my dear friend charley invited some lovely ladies over for some pre-evening drinks and we constructed a mighty bonfire in the yard of her new home. she moved in not too long ago, and its just such ana amzing place. its across the road from musgrave park, and steohens tower needle thing is just down the street from her, so we can see its lovely raindbow lightup-ness from her yard.

a good night was had by all.
people kepe telling me that their ex-girlfriends wear the same perfume i do. (Gucci by gucci). theres something strangely entertaining to think you are reminding people of heart break even on an unconcious level.

in other news ive finally started watching robin hood, after missing that bandwaggen quite a long time ago. sometimes i think its incredibly well written, but i think the low budget brings it down a little. all i can say is that the armstrong brothers are mighty fine looking, and robin hood can plunder my forest anytime he wants

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 09:53:06 GMT

a small update!
have started and am enjoying TAFE. have made some friends and am feeling full of steam! getting things done and waking up early! it feels good to function again. im starting the liver detox diet on sunday, which means nothing but raw frits and vegtables and eggwhites for eight weeks. its going to be tough but i am commited! here i come cheek bones!

my friend ella came back from america a few weeks ago, it is so nice to have her home. i missed her more then i thought i would! she bought me back this AMAZING NBA varsity basketball, and we went down to the local park and shot some hoops earlier today. for some reason our brains didnt register that smoking before hand would be a BAD idea, but we still had quite a good run around!

cant stop watching veronica mars again. wholy fucking crap i adore that show.kristen stewart > kirsten stwerat ANY day

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 13:44:04 GMT

Lill busy buzzy fingers tips. Sitting in the dark and quiet, thinking on foxes and sweet sugar smells. Living porer but happier somehow. Like in a basic and more simpler way.

left my cardigan on a bus. Was a very sad day indeed! Now I have to wear this purple leopard print number that is just a lil strange.

Missing my friend ella, she gets back from america tommorow apparently. She told me she got me a barak obama cigar, and I am pretty ecxited. I've missed her footprint in the forest so much this whole time she has been away.

I had a dream
About travelling to a far away city
And visiting
I feel so much like going away for a while. Too much of everything! Possible!

Heh. A cute lil wolf cub, all wide eyed pretty pawed, so cute in her demenor. A brain wave shared! So nice to meet people like this in the world, it gives me so much happy hearted hope

Have been exchanging letters with my dear friend evie. Its so nice just to create and send so old fashioned and fun. She is pretty swell, but so young! Im sure her heart will only grow stronger

Moth house moth house moth house
Http;//mothhouse.blogspot.com

Uoyssimi

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 10:43:03 GMT

this is far too close to home i think

Unhelpful Tips for the Unemployed Girl Nerd

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Writer's Block: Duos

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 06:35:45 GMT

Sam and Diane, Ross and Rachel, Chuck and Blair—who is your favorite TV couple?

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Ned/chuck - pushing daisies
Buffy/spike - buffy
Logan/veronica - veronica mars
Bill/sookie - true blood
Sylar/elle - heroes
Wash/zoey - firefly

Heh.

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 08:09:36 GMT

On the bus! Dipping my toes in the techniologcal dream pool that is my phone.

Job hunting is the most defeating, depressing thing. Noone is hiring at the moment, and so many refusals can not be good for the heart no no no. It makes me want to curl into a lil nest! Especially with this winter chill, breaking into bones and hands and nose and lung. Scarfs aren't warm enough anymore.

Things will get brighter soon I hope. I feel a deep and strange longing. Just under my throat, lodged so secretly

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 04:06:03 GMT

i have a new blog! more of the art and photos and films and such and less of the emotional wank i post here.
http://puddleflowers.blogspot.com/

please feel free to follow me if you have a lovely blog of your own! or if you are thus inclined

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 05:16:25 GMT

Smokey stick kinds purpose. Learning how to do things with woken eyes!!!!!
Lil gasping goshs. Sleeping very strangely latestly, I keep dreaming I am holding a very small bag and to many objects to fit within.

Zach q is my phone background, screen saver, computer background, lj icon, msn display. Wholy fuck I am losing my mind!!! Wierdo fan girl much no no no thanks

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 10:25:19 GMT

i acomplished so much today1 so very proud.
last night i wrote a big ol' letter to my deer friend helani, whom lives in canberra. i havent written her in a while,and it was so good to send her something from my heart, you know?

i also went to the bank to get a bankstatement for centerlink stuff which in turn has to do with my up and comming TAFE. also handed in resumes, to some places that even wanted employees which is a nice change.
i also walked my dog, even though she had a wierd epileptic fit half way through so i had to carry her fat ass most of the way home.
and ust now i have been painting and repairing some of the more unwholesome tears in my jeans. life is good! i can acomplish anything!

(bipolar much? i think its all this disney pop music i have been listening to, ala demi lovato, the jonas brothers, taylor swift, miley cyrus)

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 14:49:16 GMT

ended up going out to tupentine last night. it was actually quite lovely, i danced my lil heart out like a crazy person to pretty girls make graves and phoenix with my lovely lesbian friends charley, coco and lita. i hadnt seen them in so long, i feel like i am driffitng too far away lately! so much affection in my heart, but so much more lazyness in my bones.
for example: i was GOING to do some art and write some letter to loves today, but instead i ate 2 chicken pot pies and watched season 3 of thirty rock. i also woke up at 5pm. NO. JOKE.

WHAT. AM. I. DOING. WITH. MY. LIFE.

im sick of being in the company of people whom i tolerate and who i know tolerate me. i dont want to talk to you!

i feel aimless and stupid

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 04:48:19 GMT

finally got a new phone today. a shiny new hiptop slide, i hope it works for a long time and doesnt break like everyone elses.

completly shocked about michael jacksons death!!! my mum woke me up super early with the word "maddy, michael jacksons dead". i just yelled "WHAT?!" a couple of times confussedly.
sarah silverman said some pretty unreasonable and disrespectful things on her twitter about his death, calling him a kiddy fiddler and saying that his kids will be free now.
stfu, show the king of pop some respect please.

then my nan told me jeff goldbloom was dead and i freaked out even more. thankfully that one wasnt true.

supposed to go to this fashion/music thing run by my friend charliy tonight, but im feeling cold and nerdy and hybernation-esq. i havent been to a tupentine in ages though, and charley is a rather amazing lady. perhaps the evening will end in pancake manor? perhaps i will just stay home and wear t-shirts indoors and watch 30 rock

when it rains on this side of town it touches everything

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 13:20:11 GMT

going to court and tafe tommorow. my nan feels i can no longer be trusted to do things on my own, so it looks like ill be going to my orrientation day in the comapny of a 60 year old relative. gee great.

in other news i looked at over a thousand picture of zquinto on photobucket today. i think im loosing the plot. but its fair to say we can all enjoy my new icon, no?
no but seriously though, can someone please punch me out of this quinto faze, its ruining my life.

had pancakes with some kids from school i dont usually hang out with, was kinda nice. i always feel compelled to act like a total basketcase when im around a few of them in particular though, since i know in the past i have been the butt of many a disaporving look. something about being worse then people think you could be is liberating. like "fuck you! i may be a loose cannon but im still having fun"

birthday pictures below the cut! it was a pretty disapointing day really, but i am so thankful to have the friends i do to make days like that better. went to the botanical gardens for a picnic with some friends, drank wine and ate cake (as everyone should on their birthday)

ash made me these lovely cakes which combine my love for both cake, and unnecissarily crude combinations of words! aw bless

i foolishly bought a bottle of cork wine. i dont know about everyone else, but realising youve bought cork wine and dont have a corkscrew is a feeling i would not wish on anyone. luckily gel used her supreme ipswich skills to bash the cork down using meerly a pen and the bottom of an empty passion pop bottle. brilliant!

typewritter from gel, so amazing

general picnic depris

charley arrived and hastily pulled ash to a near by patch of pavement where they begun hurrily scribbling and such. WHAT COULD IT BEEEE??

my very own chalk birthday cake with candles and everything! so lovely

also, found a bunch of photos from the night i was arrested. at least i look like im having fun beforehand, right?

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 03:04:08 GMT

best 50 shows mem thing taken from anna! i watch far too much television obviously

50. Quantum Leap
49. Prison Break
48. Veronica Mars
47. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
46. Sex & The City
45. Farscape
44. Cracker
43. Star Trek
44. Only fools and horses
41. Band of Brothers
40. Life on Mars
39. Monty Python's Flying Circus
38. Curb Your Enthusiasm
37. Star Trek: The Next Generation
36. Father Ted
35. Alias
34. Frasier
33. CSI : Las Vegas
32. Babylon 5
31. Deadwood
30. Dexter
29. ER
28. Fawlty Towers
27. Six Feet Under
26. Red Dwarf
25. Futurama
24. Twin Peaks
23. The Office
22. The Shield
21. Angel
20. Blackadder
19. Scrubs
18. Arrested Development
17. South Park
16. Doctor Who
15. Heroes
14. Firefly
13. Battlestar Galactica
12. Family Guy
11. Seinfeld
10. Spaced
09. The X-Files
08. The Wire
07. Friends
06. 24
05. Lost
04. The West Wing
03. The Sopranos
02. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
01. The Simpsons

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 13:52:17 GMT

birthday today! update of the propper sort later but for now i would like to say i had an okay sort of nice day.

love love love

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 14:50:13 GMT

Leave me a comment and I will give you a letter.
Then, write 10 things that you love starting with that letter.
Post the list in your journal.
Give out letters to your commenters in return.

my letter is C from katie!
(before you click under the cut i must confess i struggled to come up with things for the letter c! i dont edsactly have 9 but oh well)

cons

(yes i could have just posted a picture of cons, but arent you glad i didnt?)

Cera, Michael

comic books

this is my comic book collection! sorry for the terrible quality photos

complaining

cosplay

(these people are dressed up as characters from the ghibli film Princess Mononokie in case anyone was wondering)

chris pine

clowns, french

(NOTE: not normal clowns. they are shit and scary.)

colors magazine

it is cold and winter and i am safe and warm. no more heroes to watch, but i am convinced i will marry a watch maker one day (like gabriele gray). or a physicist, although they seem more ellusive and hard to come by perhaps.

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 14:34:18 GMT

i have decided it is okay to be gloomy when you have have had some gloomy days
i must admit that sometimes it is very lovely to just curl up under a blanket with a cup of tea and a book or movie. listen to bright eyes! and smoke lots of cigarettes.

peripetatic!!!

i have spent alot of time lookingt pictures of chris pine and zachary quinto these last few days. i think if i ever have a boy child i will deffinatly name him zachary.

my birthday is next saturday. im having a birthday breakfast with the tarrana street boys, then a picnic at the botanical gardens with some other friends then out to a night of fun. i didnt realise it was so soon, this years birthday will be very different drom the last. nineteen.

free of a fox. one who was about m heart hut for a short while but not any more. oh well.

UOYSSIMI.

Wed, 27 May 2009 13:14:58 GMT

i woke up today to my friend ella knocking on my window.
we drove around and had a grand adventure! cept we found this poor cat lying by the roadside, so we stopped and took it to a near by vet (even though it was dead) because it had a collar and was clearly some poor familys cat.

admitedly it was kinda rediculous and desgusting as rigur mortis had set in, and it was just fucked up and upsetting.

then we went to a friends house and everyone went to musgrave park in brisbane to play soccer and touch football. its pretty strange thinking about how physical most activaties were when we were younger, compared to the stuff we do now days. it was good olde time' fun though. admitedly my participation was very minimal, but it was still nice to be sitting in the sun on the grass for a change, instead of some friends dingy smoke filled loungeroom

ive been watching the first season of torchwood lately, i dont think i like it as much as doctor who. it just kinda seems too different, and its not as cute and funny. still sc-fi and semi doctor who related, so i guess its worth seeing the rest. and apparently james masters (Spike from Buffy) comes in as some sort of Captain Jack love interest, which i must admit, intriegues me more then a lil .

Wed, 20 May 2009 14:26:12 GMT

FINALLY SAW STAR TREK!!! to celebrate i thought id share a chris pine screen cap from Blind Dating, in which his smile could melt glaciers.

i totally forgot simon pegg played scotty until he came on screen, it was like a birthday wrapped in christmas! oh how i love pegg, hes so cute and british (or in star treks case, scottish)

havent got much to say other then star trek was amazing!

night yall

Tue, 19 May 2009 12:44:26 GMT

(invitation for a picnic this weekend. ghost kitty from LADYHAWKE album art)

finally starting to feel better.
starting to stretch my sleepy limbs and wander back into the sreets from whence i came, gathering health and courage and hitching up my socks for friends and fun like i used to have before the sick.

moved back to my ma and pa's house, feeling pretty good with the rain and the dimly lit room i have settled into. things are feeling nice and honey sweet lately.
a group of friends who make me feel so full of beanz, a heart swelling with love for lovelies (and perhaps maybe a fox or two).

I FEEL I MUST CONFESS (mostly cause i know there are a couple of you on my friends list who partake in ficwritting oaccasionally) that ive startedwritting a twilight fic. i was reading this truely horendously cliches twilight fic the other week nd found myself thinking "i could do better then this!" so i decided to maybe give it a go. my story is based around bella moving into the same apartment complex as emmet (who is her older brother) for college (studying drama) and edward is her brothers best friend/ 2nd year literature student and writter of the play her class is performing for assesment. jacob is a TA and im STRONGLY considering creating a role for effy from skins as edwards younger sister who comes for a visit (mostly because effy is a supa-babe)

PLEASE DONT THINK LESS OF ME !!!

i may post it here when i am finished, just for the lols.

I am also obsessed with the dress below. Violent Green in the elizabeth st arcade is the only store i know who stocks the brand, which goes by the name Lover (Sacred Hearts College), which means it will probably cost multiple hundreds of dollars. but much in the same way russel brand was compelled to buy the boots he wears in his live dvd, i feel my life will be made somehow more worthwhile if i own this dress. I AM CONSUMERISM !!!

Fri, 08 May 2009 09:02:00 GMT

glandular fever!!!!

unfortunatly ive been out of action for the past few weeks due to the old glandular fever. i remember in grade 12 alot of my friends getting glandular fever and never really thinking it was a huge deal, but boy oh boy is it the big suck. you get hepatitus (which means your liver is all unwell) and i had horrible tonsilitus for 3 weeks and ugh its just very unpleasent. fortunatly my general life style pre-glandular isnt that different to that required of glandular victims; pretty much lying in bed, drinking juice (and watching copious amounts of tv series on dvd)

been watching Buffy (for the millionth time), pushing daisies and Oz.

Pushing Daisies;
i bought it on a whim whilst in jb hi-fi and now i am pretty much obsessed. i feel like i have to saver each episode though because theres only 9! chucks dresses are so beautiful (as is neds everything) i love that its so bright and visual, and how fast ned speaks. as a result ive been looking at pie dishes every time i go shopping in preperation for a huge pie cook up i feel compelled to do! promises of sour cherry pies have already been made.

OZ:
i cant believe ive never seen this show before. not many people i know have which i also find odd, but its pretty much the most well written/performed show i have ever seen in my whole life. its about this maximum security american prision. am pretty much in love with O'riely aswell, because he is a sneaky irishman.

ive also dropped out of uni which im really happy about. ill be going to do tafe in july (ART, not ARTS which is what i probably should have done in the first place) to go on and done fine arts and queensland colledge of arts eventually.

UPDATE COMPLETE!