+ at straddie! This is the last time me and my friends will be able to come over in september as my friends fam are selling their house there. I feel like surely we should burn the place down! Sos none may tread upon these lands as we have.
Listening to agreeable tunes and the weather is so beautiful! Can't wait to go down to the beach when night falls.

Bought a straddie souvanere shirt with a picture of a shark on it. Pretty pleased with my effort.

And im also getting paid for some art I did for the first time ever this weekend! Its so exciting.

More to come!

My holidays atire consist of black and grey but are admitedly pretty summery otherwise.
Goth summer

can i just say LOL to nathan fillion making a tweet about the number 420 and not being able to put his finger on its significance (for those of your not part of the knowhow, 4:20 is the world wide recognised perct time for smooking pot. i have friends with it tattooed on them - yeah no joke)

but still that man is the cutets/best

updateness. not a whole lot has been happening in my life apart from the same old cycilic monotony. getting drunk, making out, regretting it, getting over it, repeat. i feel like i am becoming a whole different person some days, always debating internally not only my feelings, but why it is that i dont feel differently. i swear this brain will drive me crazy.

i feel like i am slowly breaking down the stigma i have attatched to being physical with people, something that is hard to do when things have happened in the past. i know my problems arent unique and beautiful however, so i am finding comfort in being comfortable in anothers grasp, in feeling unselfconcious and being able to see sex as just sex. its so wierd, after all the drama with boys in the past, to realise that they are just stupid people like everyone else. kisses dont have to be promises! and broken hearts dont break when not awake at all.

in other less inapropriate news, i found out that i got the job at balmoral cinemas! im starting training onthursday,and i cant wait to fall into the warm folds of that workplace family!

in the meantime i am watching alot of pushing daisies and pining after ned and chuck. they are clearly the perfect boy and the perfect girl, no?

( meme stolez! )

success! i finally have a job interview! after motnths and months of the most frustrating job searching.
i owe it all to my deer friend evie however, she works at the balmoral cinemas (pretty much the cheapest nicest cinemas in brisbane for those of you not familiar with bris) and scored me an interview. which is great, because after working in a video store im really keen to stay within the movie retail buisness. call me pretentious if you will, but i could easily whittle away a 7 hour shift waxing lyrical about the latest films.

speaking of latest films, Inglorious Basterds FINALLY comes out this thursday. i cant even express how excited i am. i went on this huge world war II trip a couple of weeks ago, i find the whole thing so gosh darn interesting (in a horrible sort of way). still, i have a feeling IB would be a lot more enjoyable if simon pegg was in it like originally planned (i bought GQ this month because it had simon pegg on the cover. is it just me or are mens magazines a trillion time more interesting then the average womens magazine?)

i have so much art to scan, its totally depressing me. i know if i just get it over and done with i will feel better but i am still feeling so lazy.

to do this week:
- scan everything for gig posters/ ep art
- at least START writting next part in heroes fic
- send off arts to alessandro
- be awesome at job interview

hello dear livejournal. i have not posted for a while, i hope all has been wel in my absence!

woke up feeling very horrible and sick this morning, justafied considering i drank a whole bottle of cheap vino ("cullen" wine, and although im not a twilight fangirl, i still giggled) and a whole bottle of gin.
ugh. can someone please remind me again why anyone ever drinks.
apart from the atermath this morning it was quite a nice night though.
my dear friend charley invited some lovely ladies over for some pre-evening drinks and we constructed a mighty bonfire in the yard of her new home. she moved in not too long ago, and its just such ana amzing place. its across the road from musgrave park, and steohens tower needle thing is just down the street from her, so we can see its lovely raindbow lightup-ness from her yard.

a good night was had by all.
people kepe telling me that their ex-girlfriends wear the same perfume i do. (Gucci by gucci). theres something strangely entertaining to think you are reminding people of heart break even on an unconcious level.

in other news ive finally started watching robin hood, after missing that bandwaggen quite a long time ago. sometimes i think its incredibly well written, but i think the low budget brings it down a little. all i can say is that the armstrong brothers are mighty fine looking, and robin hood can plunder my forest anytime he wants

a small update!
have started and am enjoying TAFE. have made some friends and am feeling full of steam! getting things done and waking up early! it feels good to function again. im starting the liver detox diet on sunday, which means nothing but raw frits and vegtables and eggwhites for eight weeks. its going to be tough but i am commited! here i come cheek bones!

my friend ella came back from america a few weeks ago, it is so nice to have her home. i missed her more then i thought i would! she bought me back this AMAZING NBA varsity basketball, and we went down to the local park and shot some hoops earlier today. for some reason our brains didnt register that smoking before hand would be a BAD idea, but we still had quite a good run around!

cant stop watching veronica mars again. wholy fucking crap i adore that show.kristen stewart > kirsten stwerat ANY day

Lill busy buzzy fingers tips. Sitting in the dark and quiet, thinking on foxes and sweet sugar smells. Living porer but happier somehow. Like in a basic and more simpler way.

left my cardigan on a bus. Was a very sad day indeed! Now I have to wear this purple leopard print number that is just a lil strange.

Missing my friend ella, she gets back from america tommorow apparently. She told me she got me a barak obama cigar, and I am pretty ecxited. I've missed her footprint in the forest so much this whole time she has been away.


I had a dream
About travelling to a far away city
And visiting
I feel so much like going away for a while. Too much of everything! Possible!

Heh. A cute lil wolf cub, all wide eyed pretty pawed, so cute in her demenor. A brain wave shared! So nice to meet people like this in the world, it gives me so much happy hearted hope

Have been exchanging letters with my dear friend evie. Its so nice just to create and send so old fashioned and fun. She is pretty swell, but so young! Im sure her heart will only grow stronger

Moth house moth house moth house
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Uoyssimi

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Ned/chuck - pushing daisies
Buffy/spike - buffy
Logan/veronica - veronica mars
Bill/sookie - true blood
Sylar/elle - heroes
Wash/zoey - firefly

Heh.

On the bus! Dipping my toes in the techniologcal dream pool that is my phone.

Job hunting is the most defeating, depressing thing. Noone is hiring at the moment, and so many refusals can not be good for the heart no no no. It makes me want to curl into a lil nest! Especially with this winter chill, breaking into bones and hands and nose and lung. Scarfs aren't warm enough anymore.

Things will get brighter soon I hope. I feel a deep and strange longing. Just under my throat, lodged so secretly

i have a new blog! more of the art and photos and films and such and less of the emotional wank i post here.
http://puddleflowers.blogspot.com/

please feel free to follow me if you have a lovely blog of your own! or if you are thus inclined

Smokey stick kinds purpose. Learning how to do things with woken eyes!!!!!
Lil gasping goshs. Sleeping very strangely latestly, I keep dreaming I am holding a very small bag and to many objects to fit within.

Zach q is my phone background, screen saver, computer background, lj icon, msn display. Wholy fuck I am losing my mind!!! Wierdo fan girl much no no no thanks

i acomplished so much today1 so very proud.
last night i wrote a big ol' letter to my deer friend helani, whom lives in canberra. i havent written her in a while,and it was so good to send her something from my heart, you know?

i also went to the bank to get a bankstatement for centerlink stuff which in turn has to do with my up and comming TAFE. also handed in resumes, to some places that even wanted employees which is a nice change.
i also walked my dog, even though she had a wierd epileptic fit half way through so i had to carry her fat ass most of the way home.
and ust now i have been painting and repairing some of the more unwholesome tears in my jeans. life is good! i can acomplish anything!

(bipolar much? i think its all this disney pop music i have been listening to, ala demi lovato, the jonas brothers, taylor swift, miley cyrus)

ended up going out to tupentine last night. it was actually quite lovely, i danced my lil heart out like a crazy person to pretty girls make graves and phoenix with my lovely lesbian friends charley, coco and lita. i hadnt seen them in so long, i feel like i am driffitng too far away lately! so much affection in my heart, but so much more lazyness in my bones.
for example: i was GOING to do some art and write some letter to loves today, but instead i ate 2 chicken pot pies and watched season 3 of thirty rock. i also woke up at 5pm. NO. JOKE.

WHAT. AM. I. DOING. WITH. MY. LIFE.

im sick of being in the company of people whom i tolerate and who i know tolerate me. i dont want to talk to you!

i feel aimless and stupid

finally got a new phone today. a shiny new hiptop slide, i hope it works for a long time and doesnt break like everyone elses.

completly shocked about michael jacksons death!!! my mum woke me up super early with the word "maddy, michael jacksons dead". i just yelled "WHAT?!" a couple of times confussedly.
sarah silverman said some pretty unreasonable and disrespectful things on her twitter about his death, calling him a kiddy fiddler and saying that his kids will be free now.
stfu, show the king of pop some respect please.

then my nan told me jeff goldbloom was dead and i freaked out even more. thankfully that one wasnt true.

supposed to go to this fashion/music thing run by my friend charliy tonight, but im feeling cold and nerdy and hybernation-esq. i havent been to a tupentine in ages though, and charley is a rather amazing lady. perhaps the evening will end in pancake manor? perhaps i will just stay home and wear t-shirts indoors and watch 30 rock

when it rains on this side of town it touches everything

going to court and tafe tommorow. my nan feels i can no longer be trusted to do things on my own, so it looks like ill be going to my orrientation day in the comapny of a 60 year old relative. gee great.

in other news i looked at over a thousand picture of zquinto on photobucket today. i think im loosing the plot. but its fair to say we can all enjoy my new icon, no?
no but seriously though, can someone please punch me out of this quinto faze, its ruining my life.



had pancakes with some kids from school i dont usually hang out with, was kinda nice. i always feel compelled to act like a total basketcase when im around a few of them in particular though, since i know in the past i have been the butt of many a disaporving look. something about being worse then people think you could be is liberating. like "fuck you! i may be a loose cannon but im still having fun"

birthday pictures below the cut! it was a pretty disapointing day really, but i am so thankful to have the friends i do to make days like that better. went to the botanical gardens for a picnic with some friends, drank wine and ate cake (as everyone should on their birthday)

( ITS MAH BIRTHDAY SO ILL... )

also, found a bunch of photos from the night i was arrested. at least i look like im having fun beforehand, right?

best 50 shows mem thing taken from anna! i watch far too much television obviously

( below! )

birthday today! update of the propper sort later but for now i would like to say i had an okay sort of nice day.

love love love

Leave me a comment and I will give you a letter.
Then, write 10 things that you love starting with that letter.
Post the list in your journal.
Give out letters to your commenters in return.

my letter is C from katie!
(before you click under the cut i must confess i struggled to come up with things for the letter c! i dont edsactly have 9 but oh well)

( photos below )

it is cold and winter and i am safe and warm. no more heroes to watch, but i am convinced i will marry a watch maker one day (like gabriele gray). or a physicist, although they seem more ellusive and hard to come by perhaps.

i have decided it is okay to be gloomy when you have have had some gloomy days
i must admit that sometimes it is very lovely to just curl up under a blanket with a cup of tea and a book or movie. listen to bright eyes! and smoke lots of cigarettes.

peripetatic!!!

i have spent alot of time lookingt pictures of chris pine and zachary quinto these last few days. i think if i ever have a boy child i will deffinatly name him zachary.

my birthday is next saturday. im having a birthday breakfast with the tarrana street boys, then a picnic at the botanical gardens with some other friends then out to a night of fun. i didnt realise it was so soon, this years birthday will be very different drom the last. nineteen.

free of a fox. one who was about m heart hut for a short while but not any more. oh well.

UOYSSIMI.